Am tired of having to pick up after him, having to love him even though he doesn't deserve it.
I gave him the better years of my life and he threw it in my face , he was in a hurry and convinced he had found his missing rib, his Mrs right and his sunshine... so he hurried down to the altar and put the ring on it. NOW ,,, its hard being married to her,, cos shes not me. what we shared, what we had, he cant find it with her. he cant bond with her, he's looking for me in her. am sure you'll ask "then why didn't he marry you?" well the answer still befuddles me because there's really no tangible reason from him
I get my closure knowing i will find someone better, someone whose gain is his loss, someone who my tears will mean so much that the only time i will shed them will be in joy.
I know what i don't want now.. learnt the hard way though. and i do know what i want.. definitely not another him.
I just want some form of glorious happiness, i bring joy to tons of people, is it too hard to ask for my own version or share of the joy?????
***********
just thinking out loud..... to be continued
No comments:
Post a Comment